Stupid Worldliness...

Why is it so ridiculously difficult to live a life completely set apart!?

2 Tim 3:12 "If you even want to live a Godly life in Christ Jesus,
YOU --- WILL --- BE --- PERSECUTED."

I know that it requires "ACTIVE EFFORT" to "throw aside the sin that so easily entangles..." (Heb 12:1-4) but what about when I get tired, so bored, or just tired? I've heard the Christian life paralleled to swimming upstream, and that unless we're actively exerting ourselves to move up, then defaultly we move backwards... that doesn't seem fair to me sometimes.

I'm listening to BDW-Never Every Morning right now, quoted from Lametations 3:23, which I know and love. But seriously, how can I be happy about ending the day not on an awesome great note?

I'm a great "STARTER" - HS, I need your help to be a great "FINISHER" too! And I think this is where I am... that I know this, and know it needs to be fixed, but I have yet to institute some kind of boundaries and or guidelines for when I feel myself getting "tired" (mentally, physically or spiritually) to protect me from returning to the DEFAULT of what I used to do.

I want as much of God as I can get, this side of Heaven.

QUESTION: Does my desire for that CONSISTENTLY surpass my desire for what I want now, in this present moment?

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Father God, you know my heart. You know that I do desperately seek to know you and live out a life that would glorify Your Name in all that that I say, think and do. You know that every time I come back I resolve to never leave again - and yet, something from the world seems to always eventually pull me away... GRANTED: I'm getting pulled away "less amount" and returning than before, when I'd get far, far away before I'd return. But Father, is it possible to just STAY!? To not leave your presence???
Jesus, I do not see you as I should. I forget sometimes, the great sacrifice that you made for me. That you laid it all down to restore me to fellowship with God, and my actions - of doing whatever the heck I want to do - just disreguard and don't value and appreciate that as I should. Forgive me, and show me. Open my eyes and remind me! Thank you for your IRRATIONAL LOVE and help me to see it throughout my day, and to thank you when I do.
HS, thank you for praying for me when I have no idea what to pray for, which I'm realizing is happening more than I would think/prefer it to. You know what it is I crave. You know what it is that will satiate my life. Help me to be sensitive to You, and when I feel myself wondering away, SIT ME DOWN & let me STOP and just CRY OUT TO YOU 4 HELP! I don't want to just "live" I want to "Live Abundantly" - and if I'm leading my life, I know that'll never happen. Guide Away HS =)

SONG: Hillsong, "Lead me to the Cross"
(AWESOME Lyrics and Video of the song)

THERE ARE NO WORDS...

Jay's Message on Kevoding (8/3/08) was the best single sermon I've heard since I've been here -- "best" to me meaning that I learned lots and it hit me specifically where I was.

Sunday's Sermon, with the Living Scereny, Drama and Scott's Message (8/17/08) was the best ALL-AROUND-WORSHIP-EXPERIENCE I've had since I've been here at COTH. Check out the website, podcast the message... I bought the DVD and am sending it to family and friends in San Diego, Los Angeles and Charlottesville, Virginia -- it was THAT good!

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LORD, I pray that every Sunday we will seek to glorify You and magnify Your Name in all that we do- whether audio, drama, ushering or the message itself. That we can live our lives in such a way that others will get a clearer picture of who YOU are.
Amen

Finding Neverland (2004)

How come I've never seen this before? Was it because it didn't initially catch my interest? Or maybe because I had heard mixed reviews and said "ugh, I could do with or without"... I don't know. But I THANK GOD that I saw it and at this time in my life.

I don't intentionally set out to make Spiritual Connections with everything I do... but I've been wondering lately: I wonder if I did, INTENTIONALLY SET OUT TO MAKE AN ACTIVE EFFORT TO "SEE GOD" IN EVERYTHING -- I wonder if I would. In light of James 4:4 I would argue that God's answer would be "Yes, Yes you would see Me."



I am just blown away... in awe of His Majesty.

What a Great and AWESOME God He is!



LORD, this is the cry of my heart!
That I may see You as You truly are, and love You as You so deserve.

30 min Prayer Walking

So I started this new initiative = Prayer Walking. I'm sure people have done it before, but I thought for me it would be an ingenious way to get my verbal prayer time and exercise combined, is that wrong??

Today was the first time. And I was thinking 2-3 times a day, that's good! For starting, 1/2 way (post-work to change gears/reflect) and pre-bed... dunno, still thinking about it, but I enjoyed it this morning.

Insight from Today's PW1.1
Song: BDW - Be Your Everything
Insightful Axiom: "I WANT To, but HOW?!"

I've been sitting on this book for a while now, not really sure when to read it, but knowing that I should. I think now is the time =)
The Walk of the Spirit- The Walk of Power, Dave Roberson

I hope that my future husband will be understanding of my two addictions:
1. School Supplies
2. Books
Thankfully though, I only by what's (almost) just about absolutely necessary.

A NEW RULE = use/read what I have before I buy too many more. And that rule is by "kind" of course ;)

I'm excited to see what's in-store for my special day. Thanks again God.
AND thanks to OCF, Officer's Christian Fellowship, NROTC Retreat 2/9/03

I'm Spiritually 5 1/2 Today!

I am super excited. I feel like I should do something special, but don't know what.

I'm also kinda sick: eyes, nose, ears and throat... so I'm going to try and rest/keep it low key today; prayers appreciated.

Other than that, I'm just in a cleaning/reflective mode - thinking back on all that God's brought me through and done for me, it really is amazing when you think about it. ((I'll review journals when my head feels better))

SO I think that's all I've got right now. Thanks God for saving me and calling me to be in fellowship with you. LOVE YOU!

It's been a while...

Wow... I almost forgot about this site! I journal in regularly, but HS has been reminding me that I need to be posting some of the insights that I'm learning: putting them out there for others to learn from =)

But what can I say?

LOVE Church on the Hill and all that God has going on here... and I'm so happy that I get to play apart! It's awesome, because I'm finally starting to feel like I'm becoming apart of the team - it's pretty cool.

Anyhow, just finished the LEAD Summit and it was A-MAZING! I was the "Church Liaison" which was more work for prep/pre-event than actually the day of... I love leadership.

I'm thankful that God continues to inspire us to be the leaders He's called us to be.

I'm going to journal about some of that now... hasta.