2 Tim 3:12 "If you even want to live a Godly life in Christ Jesus,
YOU --- WILL --- BE --- PERSECUTED."
I know that it requires "ACTIVE EFFORT" to "throw aside the sin that so easily entangles..." (Heb 12:1-4) but what about when I get tired, so bored, or just tired? I've heard the Christian life paralleled to swimming upstream, and that unless we're actively exerting ourselves to move up, then defaultly we move backwards... that doesn't seem fair to me sometimes.
I'm listening to BDW-Never Every Morning right now, quoted from Lametations 3:23, which I know and love. But seriously, how can I be happy about ending the day not on an awesome great note?
I'm a great "STARTER" - HS, I need your help to be a great "FINISHER" too! And I think this is where I am... that I know this, and know it needs to be fixed, but I have yet to institute some kind of boundaries and or guidelines for when I feel myself getting "tired" (mentally, physically or spiritually) to protect me from returning to the DEFAULT of what I used to do.
I want as much of God as I can get, this side of Heaven.
QUESTION: Does my desire for that CONSISTENTLY surpass my desire for what I want now, in this present moment?
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Father God, you know my heart. You know that I do desperately seek to know you and live out a life that would glorify Your Name in all that that I say, think and do. You know that every time I come back I resolve to never leave again - and yet, something from the world seems to always eventually pull me away... GRANTED: I'm getting pulled away "less amount" and returning than before, when I'd get far, far away before I'd return. But Father, is it possible to just STAY!? To not leave your presence???
Jesus, I do not see you as I should. I forget sometimes, the great sacrifice that you made for me. That you laid it all down to restore me to fellowship with God, and my actions - of doing whatever the heck I want to do - just disreguard and don't value and appreciate that as I should. Forgive me, and show me. Open my eyes and remind me! Thank you for your IRRATIONAL LOVE and help me to see it throughout my day, and to thank you when I do.
HS, thank you for praying for me when I have no idea what to pray for, which I'm realizing is happening more than I would think/prefer it to. You know what it is I crave. You know what it is that will satiate my life. Help me to be sensitive to You, and when I feel myself wondering away, SIT ME DOWN & let me STOP and just CRY OUT TO YOU 4 HELP! I don't want to just "live" I want to "Live Abundantly" - and if I'm leading my life, I know that'll never happen. Guide Away HS =)
SONG: Hillsong, "Lead me to the Cross"
(AWESOME Lyrics and Video of the song)
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